Balancing Reasons In An Unbalanced World

by Just Went Black

/
  •  

1.
2.
3.
4.
01:41
5.

about

released in late 2003 by Assault Records. Vinyl 7inch.

credits

released December 1, 2003

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Just Went Black Hamburg, Germany

contact / help

Contact Just Went Black

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: The Hardest Lesson To Learn
countersinking the last nail
cannot stand this pain
is this the sense of desire
or is it just the price?
maybe a glance of better days
words are still able to tear me up

and still i hope to catch this dream tonight
so i step down once again
into the cave of my inner-self
passing all the dark memories
that try to cloud my eyes
by diluting the lines once so clear

somehow it begins to
in a way it always did
to draw the curtain
over my pictures of you

so here i am once again
beaten down and rejected
watching myself from outside
the failure that is me
try to overcome
try to turn it back
balancing reasons in an unbalanced world

why do i hate to love myself
and what is the force that
denies to be honest to myself

maybe my life has reached a point
where i should decide whether i
choose the cure or the disease
where all lines are drawn
and bitterness seems to be a potential fellow
i am sick of torturing myself
sick of all the beatings
tonight this will come to an end
overcome
overcome

this is
for the
unloved
greetings
fuck
Track Name: Not Quite As Bright
funny how one smile ruins my day after all these years
the sun now surely shines above my head
above my head

funny how
one little smile
brings up old things long thought
to be gone
to be gone and forgotten
funny how
one little smile

makes me recall
every loss I suffered
every failure

Now the sun
surely shines on me
But not quite as bright as it used to be

Not quite that beautiful
Not quite that warming
Not quite that bright

Still a smile can kick me out
Of my everyday routine
Which I now trained for so long
But not that successful
I learn that everytime there´s a smile

and all the defences crumble down
the stronghold falls to pieces
the walls come crashing down
and I can´t keep up the facade
Track Name: Between The Lines
oh could you please indulge me
stop to picture me on your skin
to prevent the sunburn
that will burn your white flesh
and i had enough, it went too far
and i had enough, it went too fucking far

day by day, month for month
it never seemed to reduce all my sickness
did you ever spent a single minute on me
is it worth your time
or maybe
is it just me?

and i'm trapped in the radius
we created for my life
I'm limiting my inner self to
the lines you draw for me
watching at my life unconscious
forced to see it passing away

although i can feel your weakness
it always reflects back on me
and i only could attach the importance
to the dreams that force on me at night

and i could see it
if i could feel it
the abuse that
the abuse that follows me and my
the abuse that follows me and my
whole life
Track Name: Once
to kill myself just to feel alive again
to plunge down into hell to feel heavenly once
to starve myself to death just to feel full once
to tear myself apart to pieces to feel whole once

not one step closer to forgiving
just going on and passing each of the nine circles
closer to death itself

"it's over" she whispered gravely
and again the worms left their caves
to eat me from the inside
eat up every single emotion
and let me fall again
dragging me with you
die for me, die in me
let your death
be my birth again

not one step closer

just going on
and passing each of the nine circles
closer to death itself

and it's dragging me with you
Track Name: An Arsonists Flame
filled up
I can no longer see
blinded, forced fed
nailed to the couch

I'm destined to spend a lifetime
in a constant state
in a constant state
of lethargy

this will consume me
this will eat straight through my brain
lifeless and meaningless each day
i witness my decay
and each and every day
i witness my decay

it's my life, my mind, my heart, my everything
my life, my mind, my heart, my everything
will fade until I'm completely worn off

and one day i'll find myself
inhaling kerosene fumes
breathing my final breath
prepared to strike the match
this flame will consume me
this flame will set me free
this flame will consume me
this flame will set me free
destroy myself
destroy myself
destroy myself
destroy myself